I wholly resent this religion of greed The sparkling rhinestones glued across the surface of its teeth I'll never ask you how it happened, but I'll find it while I'm circling the yard With my shadow keeping company and soft kisses from a sunbeam My body cradled by my raincoat A simulated romance that just can't seem to make me feel complete The way a sailor does at sea So I'll tear these socks right off my feet And let the knife around my neck just bleed and bleed and bleed and bleed Then I sucked the cyanide out of every seed Attached to the cherry stems you tied using only your tongue and your teeth Can you still taste it? Because I still taste it while I'm circling the yard Looking for an answer Just feeling fucking stupid Puking up my guts And falling more in love with you than I already was I'm just wishing we more old now Praying we can live forever And hoping I don't die while circling the yard.

I criticize you in my chest And I told the knife around my neck To just stop bleeding I trudge around on baited breath I sit cross-legged, breathe in the death With breaths not breathing I plant a flower on the sand And then I criticize the lamb that takes a gander at the crosshairs on my hands Then I touch another grown man's hands We dance and dance and dance before extinguishing the fire in advance I criticize you in my chest With breaths not breathing.

I wish it weren't true that I have nothing to do But everyday still feels the same; I guess that means that I'm to blame And my feet can only dream to walk as far as where we'd be If neither one of us had curriculums to complete When I close my eyes, I see these pillars of light As if a hundred fireflies let loose and used my pupils as a canvas It felt so familiar, just like any other night We would've spent the summer you came into my life And I'm so sorry for the bullshit that I cause I'm trying harder everyday to accept you're on your own And yeah, I'm sorry for the sadness and you seem to have caught It's like this disease I keep on spreading to everyone I love So this fall, I'll become a ghost This ain't the first time this has ever been on my mind But I can assure it's not the last, at this point there's no turning back But every moment that I spend scratching at the walls inside my head makes this place feel closer to Hell than it does to Heaven You looked so sad, so I gave you everything I had I was hoping it would make you feel the things I couldn't, but I should've known damn well that it wouldn't And so I lit myself on fire to counteract That frozen feeling trapped underneath the skin attached to my back And I'm so sorry for the bullshit that I've caused I'm trying harder each and every day at work right through this on my own And I'm aware you're not feeling any better about the last time that we talked It's hard to have a decent conversation when we both know you'll be gone The next day, you'll disappear So don't wait for me to call you, baby I'll promise you i'm doing just fine Because I'd hate for me to have to wait Until we cross paths in another life To say I'm sorry for all the bullshit that I've caused It's getting harder every day to accept you're on your own And I'm running out of stuff to use to keep the blood for pouring out of my heart I'll just fly my white flag above my bed and finally give up the gun So this fall While you make new friends... I'll become a ghost.